So lately I have been dealt some sadness in life. Nothing like someone died. But just other people in my life are going through a sad time, My friends are all visiting other people for Christmas.
I am not saying that I have the hardest life but my life ain't a skip in the park:
My parents work alot Dad works til 5 or 6 mom til 2 or 3. and my older sister sleeps til 2 and my other sister doesn't get home til 2. So for all that time I am alone. I am NOT one of those people who in joy being alone AT ALL. When my mom does get home she normally takes a nap cause her work is hard she is on her feet for 6 hours straight. But I am alone and It is hard to be alone all this time. You don't live the same, being alone I don't get to shape my personality the way I want cause I like the way I am I don't know what other people don't like about me... and So it makes it hard to make friends. I deal with a 8 year old for most of the day and that is hard cause our personality clash and we ALWAYS fight and I no I need to be the older one but I am learning on my own I have no one to show me how to be an older sister... (Kaylyn is always a sleep) so Its hard and my BFF is going through something hard so she is unable to help and my other BFF is rarely allowed on the comp so I never get to talk to her and my BF (best friend) is out of town and never text back so I am working by my self and am lost. I have tried talking to Mom and Dad about being ignored and left out but nothing has changed. I love my parents and my sister and would not trade them in for all the money in the world but I would trade my life style...
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p.s. sorry for such a depressing post... :(
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